I've sat down numerous times, trying to find the real reason that I don't want to blog anymore. Sometimes, I think it's because I have a lot of personal stuff going on in my life that I prefer to keep private (or at least anonymous). Other times, I think it's because of brands being so bullish in pushing their agenda onto the blogging world. But I think what it comes down to is what blogging has become: an industry with too many watered-down players.
I'd always kept journals and websites to chronicle my doings. My often seem super insignificant while life is happening, but I do find myself curious to look back on a certain event or time. I do this a lot with old photos stored on my laptop. Whenever a situation or person reminds me of something that's happened to me before, I literally look back at that time of my life to try to jog more memories. That usually helps give me context and perspective, making the current situation less foreign. I'm even pleasantly surprised by myself sometimes. It helps me deal with things in a more informed way, I suppose.
But this blog has taken a turn away from its original purpose of documenting my personal development of style and toward a people-pleasing outlet. I know I've said this before, but I think it's finally falling into place for me now. I honestly don't care how many people see these posts. I don't care to attract brands' attention (although, I won't lie, I definitely have a short list of brands I'd love to work with if and when the moment is ripe).
Lately, I've had this vision of just photographing myself in my living room each morning before work and posting photos without much description of what I'm wearing. Style inspiration is not about replicating someone else's outfit; it's about picking up on the things that speak to you about someone else's aesthetic and making them work for yourself. That's what I aim for. Whenever I pin images, I highlight the aspects of the look that catch my eye. Usually, it's the proportions or silhouette; oftentimes, it's color combinations. Going forward, I will aim to explore my style in that unbranded way. I want to be authentic and creative, not contrived and manufactured. This is more of a statement for myself and a promise I hope to keep going forward.